Friday, April 30
Alot of people will sure curious why I will use this type of heading..
Today, I went to collect a book that I order a few week before.. That is a book written by Adam and Stuart..I do not know what to say as I have not start reading it yet..
I am sleepy.. Do not wish to talk anymore.. Blog later..
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love you
4/30/2004 09:08:00 PM
Today I am supposed to go to Ihub meeting.. But I did not go.. Becuz my working date at AKLTG actually crash with my the orientation down @ TP.. And I choose to go to AKLTG.. I pray that they are not pissed off with me.. Anyway, it have been a while since I go for the Ihub thingy.. I do not feel part of them anymore.. Besides, I am not the assistant program head anymore too.. Go back.. It only seems that I am abit of extra..
I was thinking of Jin Jin this noon.. I do not know why.. When I was playing solitaire on my computer, the feelings just come right into my heart.. I suddenly come to realised that she have gone for good.. My god!! That is a damn slow response from me.. She have been away for like almost 7 months.. In fact, time passes very fast..
Today, I am busy with my proposal for Prom Nitez.. Cracking my freaking brain to squeeze out some ideas to make this event a special one.. I tot of who is to be my assistant.. But I can't think of anyone.. Suddenly, I tot of somebody who is new to Alumni when Ric say that maybe get someone new to the Alumni so that they know what the Alumni committee like.. That is not a bad idea at all.. Like those new member? I wonder how will it be to work with them.. I have high expectation on my own..
=Do whatever it takes=
=There is no try=
I heard from Ric that his exams ends at June.. My god!! That's abit of bad news.. Cuz.. It might be abit of too late to plan.. I do not want to plan it during my school semester.. If not, it will be damn deep shit on the period of October onwards which is so happen to be my exams period.. What could be better? Freak!!
Today, Yi Xian msg me when I am down to my friends company.. He ask me to go to chalet.. Actually decided to go on 30th which is like later? and till this sunday.. But too bad, the chalet is fully book.. For one reason, because.. Saturday is a public hols.. It is Labour Day.. Haha.. Anyway, I think I will be going to the chalet on sunday.. It have been a while since I went out with Yi Xian and friends.. Chill Out Time!!
I wanted to say is I want to stay out of "STRESS".. Haha.. Keeping up a happy mood.. Anyway, tonight is a cooling night.. Shall sleep real well.. Good Night, Folks.. Can anybody tell me what mood I am in right now??
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love you
4/30/2004 04:32:00 AM
Thursday, April 29
Today is Pattern Of Excellence graduation ceremony for Whoosh 9 and 10.. I meet Adil at 6.20am @ Tanah Merah MRT station.. It is really another motivating day for me.. Finally after so long, I am graduated from POE.. I have know alot of nice people and stuff.. Really interesting.. Alot of others and friends are there enjoying the happy moments.. After the whole event, we thought of going chomp chomp with Cherie and friends.. In the end, I went to Tanjong Pagar to JJ Pub with Jaimie, Adil, Melanie, Raymond, James and two more friends.. We went for a drink and KTV.. And Chii Fei offered to send me and Adil back.. Thank you very much..
I am watching VCD.. I wonder why life is so fragile.. At this moment, I do not want to say anything..
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love you
4/29/2004 04:00:00 AM
Wednesday, April 28
How sad can I be? Haha..
I already started drafting proposal for Greenview Sec Sch Prom Nite.. It could be abit of tricky here.. Haha.. Things seems to be getting abit tricky and complicated as I got into more details.. I seems to need to ask Richardo alot of things as there are some matters that I still need to ask him if it can be done or no.. Later I plan already den say cannot.. Den I believe I will drop dead..
My goodness!!
Anyway, I have did neccessary arrangement to contact Richardo to meet me after his exams and also Mrs Yeoh to see wat constraint I have in the whole events so that I would not make any mistakes..
Just now, I have talk to Carol and I found myself ended up with Coaching for a few camps for AKLTG.. That means I got two jobs.. Haha.. So far, It did not really crash into my other activities.. I want to keep it this way.. =) I stil need to leave space for Alumni Retreat, Chalet and Stuff.. Sure crash.. Depends on my priority le.. How I wish I can enjoy both good things which is impossible.. Haha.. Let's see about it..
This is the dates:-
5th May - Selection
7th May - Selection
11th May - SBG Meeting
15th May to 16th May - Training
17th May to 19th May - SK
20th May to 22th May - SK
29th May to 1st June - IAG
7th June to 10th June - IAG
16th June to 20th June - SK
24th June to 27th June - IAG
Look pack, isn't it? (say yes)
Wanna ask me out.. Faster book me!! Haha!!
That's all Folks..
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love you
4/28/2004 02:50:00 AM
Tuesday, April 27
Whoa.. First day of holiday have just started.. I just reach home from KTV with friends.. I am feeling quite tired as I slept at 8am this morning and wake up at 4pm..
Today I went to Changi for work interview @ 8pm.. Ai Ling, Chun Ting, Ying Ying, Chong Hui and me went to Changi hawker for diner first den we head towards Bam Booze for Interview.. It was supposed to be Ai Ling, Chun Ting and Me to be interviewed but in the end, I am the only one got chosen.. I am so delighted.. Ai Ling, I am very sorry about it.. Make you all go down but I got interview.
After that, Chun Ting, Ai Ling and Me head towards Punggol because Chun Ting wanted me to pass something to someone.. Anyway, after that we went to KTV session @ South Bridge Rd from 11pm to 2am..
We have confirm two activities this week and next..
1. 30th April – Fishing at Pasir Ris Pond (Meet @ 4pm @ White sand Shopping Centre)
2. 5th May – IAG Coach Selection and Grad Nite @ SOS
3. 7th May – Super Kids Coach Selection @ 7pm
4. 11th May – SBG Meeting @ 6.30pm
5. 12th May – Friends is coming to my house for Badminton den go to Geylang for Beef Hor Fun
Well, for tomorrow, I will be taking down my laptop for repair.. The reason is because my key board is faulty lor.. Den after that, I will be going to Raffles Town Club for swimming and steam bath.. *YaWn*
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love you
4/27/2004 02:57:00 AM
Sunday, April 25
I feel very happy to share this moment with you..
It must be destiny that allow people to meet one another..
It must be destiny that allow people to become good friends..
It also because of Destiny that it bring all of you to read this article..
It also because of Destiny that we can be here and knows one another..
To witness many happy memories in the past and happy moments tat happening around us right now..
In this world there are so many people, from different places and backgrounds. But what make all of us become friends? What make us from passer by and stranger to who we are now? I believe it is destiny.. Destiny tat bring us together.. For we have in the past and today..
The world are many stages in human life.. Everyday, there is a different story. And right now, the story of friendship going on..
This world have accomplished our destiny.. No matter it is short or long.. The most important thing is we have once got it..
THe question is will we have a happy ending in the end? Will we cherish it?
Sadness, Happiness, Seperation and Reunion.. There is always a sequence..
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love you
4/25/2004 08:37:00 PM
Hehe.. Today is my last paper.. I am dead tired as yesterday I study until 5am. After the paper, I went home and I fall dead to sleep until 4pm.. After that, I went to Jin Hui’s cousin shop to retrieve VCD from her to watch during the holidays. From there, we went to Geylang to eat the beef Hor Fun..
Anyway, today is also Xiao Yi’s birthday.. I wish her all the best to what she is doing and lasting forever with her boyfriend.. Finally 18th years old to do what it is used to be illegal to her.. Haha..
Today, Chong Hui, Ai Ling, Ying Ying, Joycelyn, Chun Ting and I went to City Link’s Nooch for dinner.. After that we slowly walk towards Suntec City to find Joycelyn’s gift box.. On the way there, I saw Yi Xiu with her someone.. Haha.. She saw Chun Ting and I holding hand.. Hope that she dun think too far.. Haha.. Friends being there for one another.. Haha.. Today, Chun Ting is abit unhappy due to some reason which is guys.. And she is like going to crazy.. I understand how she feel..
(Sorry to say this.. But I feel that due to Chun Ting’s bad mood, the whole group mood is abit down.. After she left for work, the group actually livens up and chats all day long) It make me realized how important is just a person to the group.
Joycelyn could not find any gift box at Suntec as Gift Land closed down already.. There’s nothing we can do.. After that we decided to go to the Arcade at Suntec top floor.. We saw a flower shop and finally, Joycelyn bought her gift box from there.. And she regain her usual cheerful self after that.. Chun Ting already left for work before we can actually start the night and enjoy ourselves..
After that we went to Millennia Walk’s pub named “Floe”.. (Did I spell correctly?) At first, we were complaining that the drinks were very expensive.. And only me and Ai Ling wanted to order drinks.. In the end, each of us ordered a drink each and it lasted us for the whole night..
Chong Hui – Screw Driver ($12.50+++)
Ying Ying – Pussy Foot ($8.50+++)
Ai Ling – Sex on the beach ($12.50+++)
Joyceyn – Shirley Temple ($8.50+++)
Joey (ME!!) – Sex on the beach ($12.50+++)
After paying, Ai Ling kept the receipt and she kept it very well.. Mainly all are cocktail except for Shirley Temple and Pussy Foot.. And I know of a new beer called HoeGardden.. It is a imported beer and it is abit sweet.. And at this place, it is very cheap.. $13+++ bucks for a pint..
When we step into “Floe”, there is big crowd at there due to soccer match between Manchester and Liverpool.. After the match, we started chatting away.. All of us chatted very exotic topic.. Which is “Sex” and Human Reproduction organ.. Haha.. In the end, we go into the topic where we discussed about who we like before and if we belongs to the different gender, who will we like.. And we also discussed about other class mates of us and so on.. Though some of these question are very wu liao.. But we really enjoyed ourselves through out.. Well, this is a small secret we have between all of us.. And I want to remain this way..
Adil called me just now.. Discussing about the SBG group, we decided to form own group.. Each group need to form up to 5 to 7 people per group.. I not very sure about this.. As Adil is the manager of the group tat we going to form., She will be calling me to see what can she do..
Oh ya.. Last thing, Max say sorry to me today.. I do not know are we back already or not.. Let’s see when times goes by..
This is why I say so many thing happen today.. Today is what I call.. “Good Life”.. Good night!!
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love you
4/25/2004 03:44:00 AM
Saturday, April 24
It have been alot of up and down week for me.. What can be more interesting.. It is my exams week and so many thing happen at the same time.. I think it is driving me crazy..
1st Matter
I am sad yesterday.. Because I have broke up with Max already.. I am feeling ok today and now.. Thanks to Ying Ying, A Ling,Chun Ting, Joycelyn and Chong Hui for cheering me up.. It is their jokes, laughter and fun that make me feel that friends is good enough.. So what of Max? He is not my dream guy.. I know it myelf.. It is the matter of time that both of us go our seperate ways.. =)
2nd Matter
It is regarding my bro.. I do not wish to talk much about him here.. As I finding it very disgraceful.. Ask me if all you want to..
Good news
I have made aot of new friends recently.. Well, do not ask me how.. But it is great group of friends.. 1st group is a bunch of people studying in Bedok View sec.. We are going out on Monday together to have lunch.. Next is Kelvin and Angela.. I do not really know much about them as I only know them for like few days?.. But we have promised to keep in contact with one another.. Angela cheer me up regarding Max.. Thanks alot Dude.. Real nice talking to you.. Next is Daphne.. =) A special someone..
Tomorrow, I am going out with Chun Ting they all.. Pray that Ying Ying can go.. I scared of her fickle minded. She have promised me to go and watch "50 first date".. She better make sure that she can make it.. Or else.. Haha.. Anyway, she is shifting to near my grandma house during May period.. I can ask her out for supper and stuff liao.. Haha..
During Holiday Activities
1. Suntec City Shopping with AiLing, ChunTing,ChongHui, Joycelyn
2. FIshing @ Pasir Ris Pond
3. Job Interview and Dinner @ Changi
4. Grad Nite @ SOS
5. e050's class chalet.. Maybe drop by visit ChunTing and Ying Ying
6. IFC Chalet
7. Kelong Stay
8. KTV Session
9. China Black's Ladies Night (We always wanted to go chiong)
10. Malaysia 3 days 3 night stay
11. Our own mini BBQ
These holidays, I have to balance between upgrading myself, to excercise, and also to enjoy myself with my friends.. I till have to manage the two jobs I am going to have.. I have decided that If I can't get any jobs from Micheal Wales on Monday.. I will be msging Carol for full time coaching @ AKLTG if possible..
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love you
4/24/2004 01:08:00 AM
Wednesday, April 21
What can I ask for man.. Now, we are having exams.. Everything have to be associated with exams and study.. I am planning to go to airport to study tomorrow.. =) I do not know will it works.. I jus want to get away from distraction like tv, bed, and computer.. And in my mind, I want to keep Max off my brain..
ROSW seems abit difficult but luckily I am on my way to the revision.. And I want to be continue to be on the same track.. I shall continue my revision tomorrow.. And EDD also..
Seriously, I am beginning to get worried.. As I find myself that I am finding faults with him.. I find that he is too Spontaneous until I find him a person with no own thinking.. And I even find him keeping everything to himself.. I do not know why I suddenly feel this way.. Am I thinking too much? It all started with my phone call with him just now.. How? I got to find a way or else this relationship will be over soon.. =..( Dui Bu Qi!! Later he is calling.. I ask him to call at 1am.. So that I can gif myself some space to breathe and do some reflection on my own.. I got a feeling that it is all my fault now..
I hate myself when I start doing all these to spoil all this relationship..
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love you
4/21/2004 11:38:00 PM
Tuesday, April 20
I do not what did I do.. Maybe u just do not want me to ask.. But what u say really.. I got to say hurt me.. I have no intention of bothering u.. What u say like I am bothering u.. I do not know.. I do not blame u for it, I know that you are not in a very good mood.. All I just wanted to keep away until yr problems is solved or improved a little.. Or maybe cheer u up a little.. But little did I expect that kind of response this way.. As I leave a msg in yr tag, I would not bother you.. U just take care..
I am not feeling very good.. I do not know why.. I thinking I am still recovering.. I was sort of shock when I receive the msg from my friend..
Anyway, Max finally send me his photo le.. Who wanna see him?? Let me know can le ya.. Haha.. Den I show u cuz it is in my handphone.. Hmm.. It have been a while ever since I am with him.. Next week, I am meeting him.. Haha.. I think I must force him to take photo with me.. I just wanna tel you.. I love you, dear.. Too bad, he can't read this.. Because He do not like to surf net and so on.. And every night, he only talks to me on the phone.. Or he will watch tv if he did not go into a relationship with him..
Time really passes very fast, We know each other for 2 months plus and been together for 1 month and 5 days.. I wonder what make our relationship sweet and last.. I used to have those belief that I can't make a relationship last after my relationship with "someone" as my feeling for the "someone" remains the same no matter what I do.. Well, I jus got to say that he is giving in to me always.. Dote on me like no one else ever do.. Except maybe for Law.. No matter what happen, he is always doing things for me.. Well, I just got to tell him not to spoil me or I will turn "bad and nasty".. Haha.. He is always tellig me where he want to bring me to eat after my exams and give me this and that.. *MuAcKz* Thank you dear for giving me such a sweet and good memory.. Even if we do not last, I will always remember it..
I got something daring to say here.. These few days, I keep on thinking about "someone".. I do not know why.. I do not know if I am missing the "someone" or I am just thinking about "someone".. I really wanna to see "someone" soon.. Just wanna see.. That's all..
Sorry Max.. But do not worry.. I still love you and I know that you just leave as much..
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love you
4/20/2004 09:06:00 PM
Monday, April 19
I am very happy with my performance @ my maths exams today.. Really.. I know that I can do so much better than last semester.. =)
Today, Max got like sort of promotion.. He is preparing side orders for his restaurant.. All the best to you dear.. I know u can de.. Next time, I'll wait for u to cure my tummy le.. Hehe.. Den win my heart from there, k? Haha.. ;) I am waiting for y fried instant noodle after my exams.. U say that u will prepare for me de.. xP
Den I met with bad mood.. I do not know why whenever my bro is back, my mood will be affected.. I wonder.. Why do I have such a brother? Or it is all just a dream? Jus now, He is back.. I told my bro not to come back for the weekday while I am having my exams.. I have enough of him.. Everytime I see him, is bad mood.. I can't do let this happen for the week.. Becuz I know that I am putting my exams into some sort of risk, don't u agree? I am even more afraid when something stupid happen in the family during my exams time.. It is worst when it got involved with the police.. What my bro can do? It is very nuisance, shameless and irritating.. How I wish I can get rid of the disgrace.. And worst is.. My mum is siding him.. Den let me exams fail.. Does not matter as long as he is back..
I do not meant to behave this way.. But what he doing is really against my values in life and therefore, we are repelled from one another..
Dear.. Faster work finish.. I am waiting for yr call.. I miss u.. How I wish someone can hear my sorrows.. *huGz t|gHt t|GhT* *soBz*
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love you
4/19/2004 09:18:00 PM
Sunday, April 18
Msg to Yixiu:" hey.. how's everything going on? I pray that everyting have been going on fine.. Do not be affected by what happening around u.. Take everything cool.. May god bless u and allow u to be able to heal instantly.. I believe u are able to do it.. in future when u look back, u will realised that everything become a joke.. will u allow a joke now to ruin yr life in the future? I do not think so.. U know that, don't u? Be brave girl.. I know u too well to know that u can do it.. Achieve excellence in everything u do.. God will bless u.. One last thing, I may not be there physically. But I want u to know.. my hp is always on for yr call of happiness & sorrow to come in.. Stay cool.."...
Msg to All friends having exams:" Yo.. Tml start of exams.. All the best 2 ya.. May u get all the energy u need to get yr desired results.. Don't stress up.. Have a pleasant week ahead.."..
I realised I want to pray for alot of people.. Those who are having problems with their studies, school and families or even love.. I really want to pray for them that all of them will achieve high excellence in whatever they do.. I feel that it is very important.. Like what I like to say.. In the future.. When we look back in the past, we realised that it is all just a joke.. Now, will we allow what it is a joke to spoil and affect whatever we want to do? I do not think so..
Therefore, I pray.. May everybody that know me.. Joey Lee Wan You.. to be in the safe hands of yours.. Blessed them with security, peace and love that they need to carry on with life.. Bless them.. ;)
And remember to wake those up that are still unaware of their wrong doing.. It is not too late to change.. I am just afraid that they don't change.. =) 20 years down the road, I want to see all my friends achieving excellence.. =) Including myself..
=Sucess is not a destination, but a journey=
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love you
4/18/2004 11:13:00 PM
Today, the weather is real hot.. I realised that I can't concentrate studying.. I am not finding any excuses.. But it is really hard to study.. I do not care liao.. Tml, I will on the air-con in my room.. Nose sensitive then let it be.. Anyway, going to have exams soon.. Must really revise hard and do whatever it takes to create the best environment to study in..
Before I started talking to Max on the phone just now, I was sleeping since 8pm till 11pm.. I tot I would wake up at 9pm which I set the alarm clock to but I still can't wake up.. Die.. I think the weather is too hot until I feel like it is draining away all my energy..
Wel, I got to say it is a boring yet challenging day for me.. Boring as in I have to study for th whole day.. Challenging because I got to fight to keep myself awake to study and absorb all the info.. =) Contradicting, right?
Tml, I will ask my parents to go to bugis at least..Go eat @ Billy Bombers.. I really have craving for it.. And wanting to drink the cookie and cream milkshake.. I have not touch it for a long time liao.. =)~ If can't eat there, must at least find purchase the drinks..
Well, now is 3 am plus liao.. Got to sleep le.. Good nitez Dear.. I feel that I know you even better now.. You really very sensitive towards my needs.. Knowing where to get my favourite food like Sushi and favourite breakfast type like "dian Xin" (I donot want to see u at footstep tml hor..), my favourite drinks @ Billy Bombers located at Bugis.. Knows what my favourie fruit like mango, lychee, longan, and "Long Zhu Guo".. Also know where to have the best dinner ever taken with good atmosphere...
End of year, let's go Hong Kong together? I really love you as much as you love and dote on me.. Miss u.. *mUaCkz* NitEz NiTeZ..
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love you
4/18/2004 03:21:00 AM
Saturday, April 17
Today, I send out two resume out to some companies to work in.. Haha.. I got to say that I am proud of myself.. Take a look.. ;)
Activities involved during secondary school day
· Class Chairperson (1998 to 1999)
· Chairman for Welfare Committee for Student Council (1999 to 2000)
· Student Leadership Training Camp (1999)
· Secondary 1 Orientation Assistant Camp Commandant (1999)
· Secondary 3 Non Uniform Group Camp Commandant (2000)
· Student Leader for Student Council Selection Camp (2000)
· Organizing Committee Vice Chairman for School Concert “Talentine” (2000)
· St John Ambulance Brigade Lance Corporal (1999)
· St John Ambulance Brigade Corporal (2000)
· Heart Saver course (2001) – Qualified First Aider
· Existing School Alumni Member – Welfare Head (2003 - ????)
· Prom Nite Chairman (2004)
Activities during Polytechnic
· Assistant Class Representative (2002 to 2004)
Outside Activities
· Super Teen Holiday Camp – Conducted by Dr Ernest Wong (2002)
· Anthony Robbins “Unleash the power within” (2003)
· Adam Khoo Learning Technologies Pte Ltd “Neuro Linguistic Programming (NLP)” (2004)
Awards
· Service Award to Student Council (2001)
Haha.. I went to watch "Starsky and Hutch" with one of my friend.. The movie is damn good.. Funny and Lame.. This is a cool way to relax over the friday night.. I feeling abit of feverish now.. I also do not know why.. I must be suffering from abit of fright just now from Wei Qiang's call.. He call me suddenly that I was not mentally prepared and I got a fright.. Esp when he just called to ask my exams.. Abit funny.. I begin to tell myself that I am thinking too much..
Well, Max ask me to write about him here.. Saying that he is very thick faced.. Haha.. He went to toilet just now and he got to put dow the phone.. Suddenly when he put down the phone, I felt a surge of fatigue in me.. Then he claimed that he is my pillar of awakening.. Haha.. So thick-faced..
I got to go for now..
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love you
4/17/2004 01:04:00 AM
Thursday, April 15
Another day have pass.. Damn fast.. Tomorrow will be the last day of school le.. But I still can't enjoy as the exams is not over yet.. I still have one more week of running to go until I go for the last round.. All the best to myself man.. Same to all my other friends who are going to have exams or currently having the exams..
In the mean time, I also have sent out an email that matters to my future.. Well, I really can't say what it is at the moment but I definitely want this "thing" to come true.. *praying damn hard*
Today I went to Bras Brasah Complex to find 2nd hand books.. Well, I got to say that there are alot of good grabs at there and it is cheap.. My god.. What could be better? After that, I went to Raffles Town Club.. My parents and I went swimming and steam bath.. Whao.. The feeling is so good.. But I think I really looking forward one is this saturday as my parents is going down to Raffles Town Club again.. Most importantly is that there are no more projects.. And that also means total relaxation..
Anyway, I have read "Losin my virginity" till page 160 plus.. I constantly reading it during my travelling time, meal time, rest time and ahem.. toilet time.. Haha.. Really so good.. I really have learnt alot of things from him.. It is really a good book that I feel uncomfortable for putting it down for just a mins.. That's the kind of life I always been wanting to have as a young fellow out in the society.. So carefree, challenging, exciting.. If you wanna know why I say this, go and read this book or you can ask me the details, I am more than happy to answer any question.. =)
What I say here is abit brief today as I am rushing off to do my project for tomorrow presentation.. Got to go..
= That's all folks =
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love you
4/15/2004 11:28:00 PM
Wednesday, April 14
I have start reading a book "Losing My Virginity" by Richard Branson.. What I could say? I have read 50 over pages but this is so cool that I wanted to continue reading.. He is very interesting.. What takes a millionaire? Actualy I find a similarity.. Which is challenging, dare to take risk, determined, think out of the box.. And this is definitely standards characteristic.. Abit boring talking about it? I feel that this is what alot of people did not have..
I have a feeling that I am going to be sick soon.. Haha.. Not that I wanted to.. But my throat is feeling different.. Abit of pain.. Hehe.. I have been drinking alot of salt water.. ;)
=) I really love Max dearly.. I got to say "LOVE".. I felt different with him.. I can't wait for the day to come to meet him after examz.. He is also very patience with me.. These few days I have ben doing projects at night.. When he called me, I did not really concentrate to talk to him but he did not say anything.. What else can I say? He also keep scolding me because he say I did not take good are of myself.. He called me "Ma Fan"..
MSG to MAX: "Dear, I really love you alot.. Being together for so short of time, but you really make me feel different.. You are the one who always stand beside me when I am in need of somebody to support me and stand by my side.. You are the one who knows that I do not enjoy doing certain things and do it for me instead.. I love you deep deep.."
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love you
4/14/2004 11:13:00 PM
Haha.. I have pass up the next project which is EDD.. Now I only left with ICA project..My goodness.. What else Can I do.. haha.. I am so ahppy.. Now, I can head towards my home sweet home and do the project le..
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love you
4/14/2004 12:14:00 PM
I am home.. Now is 12.15am.. Bath already.. Calling Max in a min.. Before I do so, I wanna share what did I do and learn today.. This is very interesting.. I am really happy that I am learning new things every now and then.. What else can I ask for? Though this is good.. But I do not think it is enough.. Achieving goals is what I want to do..
I went to Kinokuniya just now.. Walking around for a few times.. Then I bought 5 books.. Which is biographies and success stories..
1. Virgin by Richard Branson
2. Zig Ziglar Autobiographies by Zig
3. Coffee Bean success stories
4. Mc Donald Success Stories by Ray Kroc
I bought all these book plainly for modelling purposes.. And I also bought a CD from Chicken Soup which can help in relaxation.. I spend like $127 for it.. Next month, I am going to have another book shopping spree.. But I do not think I want to go Kinokuniya again.. I will go somewhere cheaper where they have the 2nd hand books..
After that, I met Gary, Cherie, Marcuz, Gerald and Adil.. Because Adil need to talk to Gary about her things.. She have some friends problem.. I also have them.. but I am better in the sense that I can put down and I know that I have to.. I do not want to mention which friends I want to let go.. But it is definitely someone in the past.. My poly and alumni are definitely good influence..
Den Cherie also there but I talked to her instead.. I let her knw about my bro thingy and she suggested that I bring my bro to IAG.. And I maybe even coaching the class that he go.. Well, the next thing to do is to bring my parents to the preview..
After that, four girls came to join us which is Trina, Cheryl, Pearlyn and Ceceilia.. Cuz the four girls is plainly new friends.. =) Nice to meet all of you.. We maybe working together this coming june holiday.. Really looking forward to it..
I realised that Gary love to read too.. When I meet him.. And he have good collection of books.. Well, you should know what I am thinking already right? I will find chance go his house to ransack his books.. =P
Now, I learnt alot of things from Gary today about how you go about talking to a person when he/she have troubles and put anchoring into a person's mind without a person knowing.. My god.. He is good.. Really.. Looks like I am really going to learn from him.. He did it on Adil.. Now, the word "one month once" still rings in my head.. And Trina and Cheryl also got anchored with the "Sound"..
Well, I have decided that I am going to Bras Basah this thursday after doing my ICA project. This firday is the presentation but it is not even up yet.. My god.. I wonder if I can find Charles to help me with it..
Hmm.. Max called.. I got to go le..
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4/14/2004 12:24:00 AM
Tuesday, April 13
I never expect the programme to have such a great and powerful impact on me.. I am really doing whatever it takes to achieve what I want to achieve.. I am very happy.. There is no words that can describe my mood now.. Really like I am at the top of the world.. Well, I have a dream that I have not yet to acheive and I know that I am on the track to getting it.. The excitement and happiness on the journey on getting to it is so great.. The feeling is damn good and shiok.. I will really do whatever it takes to achieve it..
Well, if I get it, I will share to all of you what it is.. For now, I shall just *ShHhH...*.. Maybe the only person who know it is Stuart.. =)
All these really got to thanks Stuart.. If he did not do the conflict solving on me and allowing me to find a solution on getting my goals.. I will never get it and won't now how great it feel.. He is the man who give me this feeling and of cuz, Adam for influencing me to be someone so successful like him.. Really thank you..
=Success is a journey, not a destination=
=If you can't, then you must!!!!=
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4/13/2004 01:49:00 PM
Monday, April 12
I have been away for the past 3 days for a course. I have promise Adil to do a reflection on this. And I will also make sure she do it.
Anyway, As I say at prevoius blog. I am feeling moody as I know that I am going to change. Now, I am feeling confused instead. Well, that's a good sign as it shows that my brain is looking for an answer.
Day 1
As I first step in, everything seems so strange.. I do not know what to expect at all.. I have learnt alot of new things just one day.. I know alot of new friends too..
Today, I realised one important thing.. I am not focused enough.. Reason? Because I still do not know what I want in life.. That must be something very interesting.. Well, to me, I just think I have too many goals that I lost focused.. One of the reason is because of my parents.. I have the choice to choose but I have not learnt to defy my parents.. When we were learning about modelling.. The first person that come into my mind is Anothony Robbins.. He is definitely a good person to model..
I begin to ask myself what is my limting pattern that stop me from growing? Not focused is definitely one of it. The next one is I have short attention span, I am indecisive.. Hell.. I just need to tackle this 3..
I will be much more better than now.. Well, the fact is I have not learn how to stay focused and how to make a better decision.. During the swinging log, I fall down and actually sprain my ankle.. Thanks to En Wei and Andrew who carried me around and Pete.. If not, without them, I might be hopping around on one leg.. Really like Kangaroo..
1. Modelling
2. Swinging Log
3. Comittment
4. Modelling
5. My limiting pattern
6. Use of Milton Model
Day 2
I came back despite my leg injury.. I went thru the swinging log.. I know that I am not focused enough and I have short attenion span bt all these is no longer the truth.. The truth is I am who I am.. I have a change of new identity.. Ask me who am I.. I know it..
Haha.. Hmm.. I have a phobia of lizard.. Now, I dare to see a lizard without running away? But I definitely not going to touch it as it is dirty.. ;)
I realised I have not learn to be more not blur.. Wilson is actually Max's (EX BF) friend.. And I only realised it after a while.. What the ****.. Haha.. Max brought him to my chalet before.. The one who saw me and max hold hand and kiss.. ;) *shy* Well.. That's the past.. =)
1. Born to win
2. Man in the mirror
3. Swinging Log
4. Fast Phobia Cure
5. Elicit a strategy
6. Circle of Excellence
Day 3
Early in the morning, I am supposed to do the high beam.. The log is 3 storey tall and I have to walk thru the beam. All I have is a outcome of my life.. =) Guess what.. I got it through.. I am so happy..
I remember one of my limiting pattern is indecisive? I have found a solution to solve my indecisive.. And that is Part by Integration.. At first, I thought that I am going to learn maths again. Den I realised that it is a way on how to solve internal conflicts.. Soon, I also get to know the timeline therapy which I heard of it but no idea what it is.. I make use of this therapy to solve the problems I used to have with XiaoYi and JinJin, Kian Mei and Annabelle.. =) I am delighted..
Well, The day finally ended.. I am confused.. I know that my brain is looking for something and I know it will find it soon..
1. Time Line
2. Conflicts
3. High Beam
4. Installation
5. Unconscious Mind
All these is actually the brief intro of what I have go through for the 3 days.. Well, not forgetting that I go through the programme from 9am to 2am.. I really got to thanks Adam and Stuart.. =)
I also got to know alot of new friends.. Like En Wei, Andrew, Wilson, Raja, Jackhee, who else? All these are handsome young guys.. And also Jaclyn, Brenda, Rossana and many many more.. I also got ppl like Prudential Top Best agent, Top Adviser of prudential out of 3000 of them, Doctors, NTU Top Student.. Wah.. All these high high ranking one.. *Sweating* Of cuz, there are more..
Who want to know more.. Come and ask me lor.. =)
WHO AM I MAKE A DIFFERENCE...................................
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4/12/2004 11:33:00 PM
-=Pending=-
Joey is currently writing reflections on the course she have went through since last year. This time, it is different, she have different breakthrough. Therefore, she would like to share it with all of you or her friends. Plase tune in to her blog and You would enjoy it. Don't you agree?
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4/12/2004 10:42:00 AM
Thursday, April 8
I am sitting right at the window right now.. The scene is very beauitful.. Seeing the moon.. The aeroplane flying across the night filled stars shining brightly.. The swimming pool filled with reflections of the clouds & moon.. The wind is blowing breezely across my face.. So comfortable.. 2 people is on my mind.. Someone and Max.. I miss Max.. Today nv sms Max for the whole day.. Feeling so uncomfortable.. Aiyoyo.. The someone also.. But not so much.. The memory maybe is just what I have to hold on.. I have a threshold of pain to forget what I have to forget..
Just now, I was driving my parents home just now.. Almost lost control of the car cuz I forgot car brake abit spoil one..Scared me out.. Luckily my dad is beside me.. Den as I was driving, I noticed the moon.. It was so eerie.. It is orange in color.. Like anytime the whole is going to come out in a pack.. Full moon somemore.. Haha.. I think I think too much..
Anyway, I was talking to my mum jus now.. We were just talking abt woman's stuff.. Den suddenly, she talk abt doing business, she wants me to go and set up business and stuff.. Actually is not I do not want to do business.. But my interest is not doing business.. I prefer teaching.. Really.. Sorry Mum.. I will think of alternative.. I know you and Dad are business owner and wants me to be one too.. =) Of cuz, I would not let you down.. So it does not matter whether how I earn my money as long as I earn it clean..
I was abit moody now.. I do not know why.. Maybe I know that I will be facing a exciting and challenging course tomorrow and will be facing alot of challenges and changes that are coming on my way.. And I know I have to change or I will be the same getting the same results.. What I want is ULTIMATE challenge and changes in myself to be a better person.. A person who is capable to succeed and soar in life.. This is not too much a request as I deserved what I want to be and I absolutely have the ability to be what I want to be..
Ai Ling, I am abit disappointed but it is ok.. I understand.. I did not blame you.. We will always have chance to go together.. =) Right? As long as we are friends for a day that we have the chance to go KTV and enjoy.. =) Well, Hope everything is ok with your family side.. God bless you!!
I realised I want alot of things.. Really need to work during the holidays to get what I want..
Fossil watch.. Brown Color one.. $135
Armani Jacket.. Grey Color one.. $199
Levi's Shoes.. Blue Color one.. $179
Total ================== $513
= Beautiful things ain't eternal. Things that eternal ain't beautiful at all.. =
How true is it? Nobody knows..
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4/08/2004 11:23:00 PM
Wednesday, April 7
I just eat my medicine.. For flu and gastric.. So shitty the pain.. I wonder why gastric is so "xin ku" one.. I have not have regular meals yesterday.. Eat late for Lunch and Dinner.. I am starving when I was eatting my Dinner.. And in the end, I got gastric..
Yesterday, Ai Ling announce that the KTV might be cancelled.. Sigh.. My heart drop heavily.. Cuz I am looking forward to it ya.. *Pray hard*
-Fall Asleep-
Back!! Sorry that I fall asleep.. I have waken up long ago le.. I went to do my EDD project.. That's y.. We have sort of finish the project but last mins, we have come to a conclusion that we need to change some stuffs.. Well, that is a good news already.. We will be doing the presentation next week.. I must go home and read up all the source codes..
Max msg me.. We are supposed to meet up today.. But I decided not to.. Not that I don like him or what liao.. Just that I have arrange quite a few stuffs in line to one another.. And if I meet him, I have to give up the rest of my appointment.. Which is like.. 3 to 4 of them?
1pm - MobComp Projects
2pm - Meet Friends to purchase smth
4pm - Meet Jin Hui
6pm - Go home eat dinner.. Ah ma cook my favourite food..
Anyway, I realised smth last night.. I have a good bunch of friends.. Haha.. I also do not know why.. Just that feeling.. If you ask me who is it, I got to say is the 5 girls.. Maybe 4 for now.. YY, CL, AL n YL.. Actually got CT.. But these few days nv see her.. I also do not know why.. I heard that she is working.. Anyway, I do not hope to last because we nv know what going to happen in the future.. But at least, for now, we shall be there for one another.. ; )
I will go and do project le..
-Project Time-
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4/07/2004 09:15:00 AM
Tuesday, April 6
I am now in ROSW Lab.. Doing my project.. I have left with the last ACL to complete and the whole damn project is complete.. I got a question for you? What is the thing that you want to fail in when u do ROSW? Haha.. We have come to conclusion.. It is to fail to ping each other when we doing ACL.. That feeling is so good.. We would cry if we fail..
So sianz.. I need to rush off soon for my tuition at 7.30pm.. I still have 2 more projects that I am supposed to complete which is ICA, EDD and QE project. I must complete QE by tonight if not, I really can die.. Before De Han send me the rest of the notes, I just got to do my EDD first.. Do I look like I have a choice?
Really stressed.. I believe not only me.. The rest of my friends feel the same way too.. This is why we are going to KTV on thursday.. And also want to go to Club Med @ Bintan.. =)
I also feel that I and Max go into a relationship in a wrong timing.. He started coming into the picture at the time when I have alot of projects.. This year got 5 projects to complete.. Den now, I actually do not have time for him.. Poor Boy!
I was thinking something.. How's Annabelle? I have not been talking to her for nearly 2 weeks? And I heard that her life is quite of rocky now.. Relationships lah.. Blah blah blah.. And she and Kim Thong quarrel until quite chia lat.. I am not there to console and comfort her.. Well, I also do not know if it is good or bad.. Do not ask me what I am thinking.. I do not know how to explain..
I have two things in mind now.. I want to go to SPA.. Haha.. And also to excercise.. During these projects days, I did not really have enough time to excercise.. My fats are starting to gather at a area liao.. Haha.. One more thing is I am arranging a High Tea session with my aunts and mum.. Aiyo.. Aunty's session.. Haha..
My lesson for Bartending or Haircutting is starting soon le.. Haha.. Also got to sign up for Laselle course.. But I do not know whether should I choose Interior Design or Fashion Design.. Hmm.. Must make wise choice..
I think that now I should not think too much but concentrate on my EXAMS & PROJECTS.. =)
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4/06/2004 06:22:00 PM
Monday, April 5
I went to Gelare Cafe for Ice Cream with my family just now.. It been a long time we went to eat together.. =) After that, I spoke to CLarice.. A friend of mine who is currently studying in Australia.. Yesterday also spoke to Vivian, a friend in Taiwan.. Really miss both of them.. Miss me anot? I know that all of you did.. *mu@cks*
Clarice:"JOEY! i miss u man..how have u been? this is one cheerful and fun-loving gal who never fails to be there for u..knew her thru camp and though we only knew each other for a few days, it seemed as if we were long time pals. it's a amazing how pple can get along so well when u jus got to know them for such a short time. well, all the best with sch! it's ur last lap alreadie so hang in there ya? keep in touch and stay jovial!! cheers!"
Joey:"Miss You Too!!"
I am very happy today.. Things goes wrong for me in the morning.. I forget my handphone and my lab test reference.. I am so worried.. But went back to it original track in the noon onwards.. Hehe... Today went to have lunch with Yi Ling, Ying Ying, Joycelyn and Ai Ling.. Den we discussed about alot ur gathering and stuff.. We have made 2 decisions.. This weekend, we will be going to KTV.. This is going to be fun.. All of us wil be looking forward to it..
This coming holiday, we also have decided to go to Bintan.. Hehe.. Actually, I know of which place to go le.. My parents this stage already pass through.. They have no objections regarding this.. This one need to make special arrangement.. I want nothing to goes wrong.. I have a feeling that it would be quite expensive.. I'll see what I can do.. I think club med is the best! Includes all games and food with free flow drinks.. I heard it is $455 but this is checked from the internet.. I will still checked from the travel agency.. How?! Ai Ling when you see this.. Tell me what you think.. k?? I am definitely looking forward to this outing..
Bintan
Food and Beverages :
4 restaurants, 2 bars, a discotheque with 2 karaoke rooms & 2 billiard tables. The only hotel to offer free beer and wine during lunch and dinner.
Sports and Recreation :
6 tennis courts, 2 squash courts, a multi-purpose sports hall for badminton, volleyball and basketball. Fitness and health centre, Archery, Circus Trapeze, Amphitheatre 2 swimming pools, seasports facilities - snorkelling, sailing, windsurfing, scuba diving.
Other facilities :
Private beach. Nightly live entertainment.
What else can I ask for? This is heaven.. I need to go to do project later le.. If not later he call me, I can't do anymore.. Miss him... You better dun call me "Zhu Tou" anymore.. If not, I angry le.. =P
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4/05/2004 09:41:00 PM
I am talking to Max.. He keep scolding me *pig head*.. Haha.. I also dunno why I can't sleep without hearing his voice on the phone... The feelings is so sweet.. I call him dear.. We have been together for 2 weeks le..
He is 23 yrs old.. He is a libra.. Good character person.. Using ericsson's handphone.. Hmm.. He likes purple, black, silver, yellow and silver.. 180 cm Tall, 81 kg.. Working now at Toa Payoh.. Everyday 6pm to 10pm and Off at Wednesday.. He just finish his NS.. He is waiting for entry at ITE Tampines.. Course is Mechanical and Electronic Drafting and Designing.. So cheem.. Worse than me.. Near my school.. I am so happy..
Wat else? He likes to crack jokes and make me happy whenever I am down.. He loves Jigsaw Puzzle.. And he wants to make a 500 pcs of dog puzzle for me when he knows that I like dogs but no patience to make it myself.. =) He also likes to play baketball and read comics.. He wants to bring me to Hotel's Buffet knowing I love International food and Seafood.. He always don allow me to pay for my stuff and always pamper me..
We must everyday talk on phone for 2 hours.. Sms from morning to night.. And send each other good night msg.. I do not know his bad point.. Just that he always make fun of me.. What else? Maybe we have not get together for long.. That's wh I cannot say anything much about him..
Wat else I can say? I am just crazy about him.. He is just so sweet.. I will love you forever, Dear.. I do not want to say anything about him le.. Haha.. Some more.. I can don sleep le.. I am still talking on the phone with him...
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4/05/2004 12:54:00 AM
Sunday, April 4
Just now, I went to celebrate Ai Ling's birthday.. There are 14 of us who went there.. That's a good gathering.. It hae been a long time that the 6 girls gathered.. Hwo nice is it if we can do this often but I really do not want to spend so much money again? =) All of us spend $143 at the FIsherman Village.. Thats alot.. I have spend quite $30 over on it and You Yi spend $50.. I think next few days must save money liao.. Ai Ling drink alot.. Me and You Yi keep on giving her drink half a cup alot of times.. Haha.. In the end, she is drunk.. Den she lies on me and Leland's shoulder to sleep.. Poor girl.. All my fault.. Haha..
I am talking to Max now.. I just come back from Pool @ Marine Parade.. I went with Sheng Chao and You Yi.. Both of them damn pro sia.. Then I see them do stunts.. Haha.. I wonder Max know or not.. He have been waiting for my call since 10pm.. But I can not pick up becuz I am at Fisherman.. Den very noisy.. Sorry Dear.. He really very patient with me.. Den he accompany me chat on phone when I am on the way home.. To make sure that I am safe. =)
Just now, I meant to saboh Ai Ling but I fail.. In the end, Kim Thong do it on our behalf.. This is so shiok.. In the end, he got the cake on Ai Ling's face.. Hehe.. Den My mood is not bad de.. Hehe.. Just that I am thinking about Jin Jin's case.. =) Anyway, I am feeling much better now.. Jin Jin can finally rest in peace.. I threw a bottle of strobe with a msg specially to Jin Jin.. U know what I wrote liao lor..
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4/04/2004 04:07:00 AM
Saturday, April 3
I am back from shopping and buffet lunch.. It is so good.. Aiyo.. I have bought a few things and some in my mind for consideration..
1. Levi's Shoes ---------------------- $179
2. Armain Exchange's Jacket ------$199
3. Body Shop Oceanus Set --------$100++
Aiyo The damn thing will cost me $500.. My goodness.. How you want me to do? I do not know.. I am thinking of a strategy to get those things.. Mainly from my parents.. I really like the shoes alot..
Anyway, I got to go soon le.. Ai Ling's birthday celebration at Fisherman Village is starting soon.. *yawn* Yesterday sleep at 4.30am.. Damn tired now.. How?? Shitty..
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4/03/2004 08:44:00 PM
I am feeling abit tipsy.. Hehe... Feel so great after a few drink.. I was watching a Hong Kong movie now.. Damn nice.. It called "Armed Reaction IV".. They featured alot about gangster and also relationship.. In this story, there is a girl called Ah Zhi.. She is very beautiful.. But she faced alot of problems in love.. She broke with her boyfriend and be with the new one but in the end, she realised that the ex boyfriend is still the best.. The person she loves most and understand her the most.. Too bad, the ex boyfriend is getting married..
I wonder why life must be like this.. Though this is just a show.. But I know the content still reflects on some of our life.. I feeling giddy.. Tomorrow morning must wake up early.. Need to go eat Buffet.. Den must do booking..
Just now on the way to club, I was thinking that suddenly all my interest of going anyway tml is lost.. Now, the feelings is abit back already.. I want tomorrow to go on smoothly.. I think I have drink abit too much but I was feeling perfect.. Jin Jin's case finally got verdict already.. The driver is jailed 2 years and 3 months.. I do not know if is it too light.. But I do not wish to discuss about this here.. All I ever I just want Jin Jin to rest in peace..
Currently, I am feeling perfectly ok.. I only know that I am in love with Max.. I do not know how to say.. Hehe.. Dil.. U know, right? But It have been a long time that I ever have this feeling.. Probably is because my heart does not love someone already.. But in me, I still want the someone to be happy.. That's all.. I hope that I was not asking for too much.. May god bless all the people I love..
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4/03/2004 02:49:00 AM
Friday, April 2
I am dying soon while waiting for the news.. I am very worried that I can not even concentrate doing my ICA project.. Max is also messaging me to cool me down.. Sorry.. I scolded you.. I got no mood to joke.. We scared the verdict is too light for the driver..
Den I thought of watching the movie "Passion of Chirst".. But I got rejected due to heavy loads of projects.. Actually, I also have projects that have not complete.. But I just want to calm down and go relax tonight.. If not, I can die.. I felt so heavy.. I do not want to tell my friends the reason for going to watch midnight show, if not they will feel obliged to go.. This is call forcing liao.. *Shake Head* =|
Maybe I will go clubbing tonight.. See how.. Worse come to worse.. If really moody, I will stay at home and not go over to my aunt's house.. Anyway, I am alone.. I can purchase "Drinks" to drink it myself.. I have to wait till tomorrow for the buffet.. I also can not wait for the sumptous seafood buffet, this is simply so great.. *Hmmm...*
I do not know how to do my ICA project............ Oh ya.. My dad msg me.. He have received the notes I gave him and Mummy.. I wish him and Mummy enjoying the whole trip at Bintan.. Enjoying 2 party world.. I do not want to go and be extra.. So sucky.. Hehe.. Den ask him to remember to cool & funky beach wear for me.. Haha.. How I wish I can go too somewhere in the future.. *Pray Hard*
-Blog Later *back to project*-
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4/02/2004 11:51:00 AM
Thursday, April 1
I heard from one of my friends that tomorrow will be the hearing of Jin jin's accident.. The final verdict will be out.. I do not know what to say.. I suddenly felt like my heart very heavy.. I am quite lost..
Just now, I was hearing a song..
YESTERDAY
Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly,
I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm.
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love you
4/01/2004 08:22:00 PM
Amazed
Lonestar